My life lately has been a basket case of baby illness and super stress. I find myself counting so-called ‘blessings’ every day, right along with counting how many things just stink. I’ve been listening to this woman Tara Brach’s podcasts just to get myself to sleep at night- she’s new agey but not in an annoying and unobtainable, yoga pro kind of way… she’s relatable and frankly has become my mother in the last few weeks. As adults, I feel like we too need a momma sometimes. When things look hopeless and bleak and the season is changing and life is changing and diapers need changing- wouldn’t it be nice if mom would just swoop in, make you some soup and cookies and let you take the day to watch Freaks n’ Geeks in bed while she takes over your life? Sing to ME, goddamnit! of COURSE I feel horrible for Clementine who is the one with the ear infection and the month long cold. But I also have to feel sorry for US, the ones who are up all night with the constant whine and the irritable little thing all day long. At Target today, she was fussing nearly the entire time, the poor little nose tap running amuck down her coat, and I was in a total 9 mile stare, hoping that people would not pay attention, judge, scoff, or feel sorry for my crying-baby-in- the-target cart ass.
It made me remember one time at Target long before I was a parent, when I was sharing the isle with a woman who had just snapped at her 2 or 3 year old child, who was whining for a toy he could not have. “GOD DAMNIT! I HAVE HAD ENOUGH OF THIS SHIT! STOP IT! STOP IT! YOU’RE DRIVING ME INSANE!”
“What a BITCH!” I thought to myself, “That poor little guy… all he wants is a toy. He’s innocent, and can’t help himself. She needs some serious anger management”.
Now, I would think “You GO, girl! That little bastard doesn’t deserve a lick of ice cream. Hateful little thing. I’m amazed you lasted this long, sister. Go get your nails done. Get a massage. Judge you not, my friend. Show him who’s boss lady!”
Not that I am whining just to do so on the internet. I do have some positive things that have happened lately that I feel like sharing. First, my 7” Bad Reputation, was released last week and has been doing well. We played a show to release it at the Varsity theater nov. 1st and that was a blast. We played Iowa City last week, which was also fun.
oh, and OBAMA won the election. That was pretty neat. And Minnesota voted NO NO. Still a long way to go for gay and lesbian families, but at least we took a stand to let the road be paved ahead of us.
Also I got to see David Sedaris this weekend, which has been a goal of mine for many years now. Yep, he’s damn funny and ridiculously talented!
there, I feel better. thanks for reading if you did so past the first few lines!
mommas need mommas too.